Hoppin Bunny's 30 Days of Me Day8

As you may be able to tell, music has always been a big part of my life. I didn't grow up in the greatest of family conditions. I worked with what I had I guess. My mom was always in between jobs, or just unemployed. What she could give me she gave me with out question. My mother and I may have not seen eye to eye on a lot of things, but when I was sick, or feeling down she always knew what to do. She'd pull out her guitar, or anything she could get her hands on, and play me a song. I can't tell you how many nights I spent awake just listening to her sing.

Music was an escape to me. I could put my headphones in and just block out the world when I needed too. I'm saying this because although music has meant so much to me there is one thing that means even more to me..... Acting.

I always knew I belonged on stage. I never really cared what it was for, as long as I was on it. Acting let me put away my mistakes, my family problems, or just my problems in general. I could be someone else. I could live someone else's life, even if it was just a fictional character. There's a problem with this though. My dyslexia. For those of you who are looking for a better definition, basically when I read or when someone speaks to me, my brain just mushes it all together. It has a I have a hard time comprehending what's trying to be processed. Whether it be words sounds (spoken language)or numbers (my worst) I have to have time to really think about whats around me. I talked about this in my earlier post. But because I can't read that well, if you give me a script I have to really learn it and practice it before I read it out loud. So a read through never went well for me. My insecurities started to eat at me. Instead I turned to television.

 I watch tv A LOT lol. I'm a HUGE movie buff and usually can beat a lot of people in movie and television trivia. When I graduated high school I really wanted to do something with drama so I decided to go for a Secondary Education major with a concentration in Speech and drama. But after doing the communication thing for so long I started to notice that it was really just not for me.  So I changed my major to English Lit. crazy right.

This blew most of friends away. With my dyslexia it has been SO tough. If you're ever reading my blogs and you're like man her grammar stinks, or I wonder if she knows that she used the wrong your? Yes I do lol I'm not trying to use my dyslexia as an excuse. If you see a problem, it's not because I don't know the difference, or that I don't know what right from wrong is. My brain just doesn't catch up on it as fast. I thought acting would be easier because all I had to do was memorize lines. But you can't get to know your character without reading.

Before I began talking about my Favorite non-Korean shows or movies I just wanted to give ya'll a heads up on why I love television so much.